new xanga- o0h_theMadness

deleting this. dont bother if you dont care.

blah . nothing happens nowadays. everyone ignores me and i never talk to anyone- :| - predictable i guess.

october-
14th - 1/2 day.
15th - jojo and iyo visits. good lord- finally.
16th - more people come?
17th - birthday. :)  camera and clothes shoping with jojo. and. stuff?
18th - cousin's birthday ;; long phone convo.
19th - math test and haircut?
22nd - skip school + jet myself to la. yay. and probably see friends.
22nd, 23th, 24th - retreat. -_-"
24th - jet back. im planning a plan. shhh.
29th - no school. wtf. i don't know. 
31st - halloween. nothing. 

crying is an art.

yeah yeah yeah. ive cried so much this morning my eyes were fucking swollen. good god. my mom is bitching at me on how i should do my fucking homework. like i have anything to compare to. i have 16 yearolds in my 8thgrade class. 5 pages of math in which i already KNOW. what the fuck. so lately im so fucking depressed. i want to cry everywhere. even now. and ive been listening to cryable songs. yea yeah. whatever. plus i have NOONE to talk to about it anyways. noone. not even jojo. all we talk about is like fun stuff. dont deny now.part because i dont wanna or else ill seriously fall into DEEP sepression and partly because noone talks to me. and so everything around me is all fucked up. yea yea.

my mom keeps saying im "unappreciative". whatever. shes lucky i havnt gone and done what she did at my age.  which pisses me off because she keeps saying im so negative. damn right. and so blah blah. i end up getting all yelled at and i get fucking mad like i have pms or something. its not pretty. man if only i couldve stayed.

dammit. and once again my mom is yelling at me. argh. leave me the fuck alone people.

hoooly COW!

okay so this morning i woke up to uta saying something happened to the computer. and i went. damn. wait until i actually wake up.

but then i found out i had like 140 adwares on my comp. fuck. so im fixing it now. grawr.

Another Perfect Day - American HiFi
{ I still belive it when you say... its another perfect day... }

dammit.

havn't updated in like... forever.

i hate this city like shit. how come i have to move here myself. why do I have to deal with this. ive had enough in my life. godamn. fuck. fuck. fuck.

damn. :|

i seriously hate this shit.